There are so many theories about dreams and what they could possibly mean. Are they foreshadowing? Are they our subconscious pushing into our conscious? Or are they brought on by a powerful medication? Well, I’m sure you know what I would write about me and my current state, but perhaps all these could be true as well. I remember prior to my medicated induced state my dreams would usually consist of people I cared about or would involve a worry or stressor in my life. With the 8 day steroid that I’m on, I’ve dreamt that I had my arm bit by an alligator, witnessed a guy run face first in front of a TTC bus while holding a Tim Horton’s Iced Cap, and a very steamy night with Barney Stinson. I’m pretty sure none of these dreams are foreshadowing…but if the night with Barney Stinson happens, I’m not going to complain ;)
How do we parallel our dreams with our wishes? Where do we draw the line between what is brought into our perception when we are sleeping to what we knowingly desire and hope for. It’s also interesting how fast a dream can change. I remember when I was in high school I had my whole life planned out: by 24 I was already married, pregnant and with a stable job. HAHAHAHA!! And I wasn’t on steroids when I thought of that one…scary, no? I don’t think I would’ve ever expected my life to be what it is now, nor would I want to be friends with 14 year old me. When I was even younger I wanted to be a veterinarian, but that ain’t happening. Those dreams have changed and something that we’re not really taught but rather learn through life is that we need to change our goals and dreams. We have to play with the cards we’re dealt with and although I’ve been dealt a pretty strong hand for years on end, my last little time trying to deal with a new hand hasn’t been easy. Kinda wish I had a cheat code. It’s also a little disheartening to still have the wishes and dreams that we could when we were kids. For example, I could easily say “I really hope and dream that I win the lottery” but at this age we know about the variables: you have the play the lottery, you have to consider the odds, and you have to realize that you’re probably not going to win. Is it still worth dreaming even though we have to think about the variables? Is it harder to accept the variables the older we get?
How do we parallel our dreams with our wishes? Where do we draw the line between what is brought into our perception when we are sleeping to what we knowingly desire and hope for. It’s also interesting how fast a dream can change. I remember when I was in high school I had my whole life planned out: by 24 I was already married, pregnant and with a stable job. HAHAHAHA!! And I wasn’t on steroids when I thought of that one…scary, no? I don’t think I would’ve ever expected my life to be what it is now, nor would I want to be friends with 14 year old me. When I was even younger I wanted to be a veterinarian, but that ain’t happening. Those dreams have changed and something that we’re not really taught but rather learn through life is that we need to change our goals and dreams. We have to play with the cards we’re dealt with and although I’ve been dealt a pretty strong hand for years on end, my last little time trying to deal with a new hand hasn’t been easy. Kinda wish I had a cheat code. It’s also a little disheartening to still have the wishes and dreams that we could when we were kids. For example, I could easily say “I really hope and dream that I win the lottery” but at this age we know about the variables: you have the play the lottery, you have to consider the odds, and you have to realize that you’re probably not going to win. Is it still worth dreaming even though we have to think about the variables? Is it harder to accept the variables the older we get?
Well, this little cynic will try to open up a bit, but in the meantime I’m going to eat and hope that my last day of meds will be an easy one.
Peace.
Peace.
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